"A daughter is one of the most beautiful thing the world has to give" - Laurel Atherton
the gift of motherhood. It is the best thing in my life - yet!
It's my 2nd time to celebrate Mother's Day, but it seems that I have learned a LOT this year - may it be from my personal experience or from my mom.
Together with the joys of motherhood, comes the frustrations too - like the fact that I am still blaming myself up to this day why I did not take newborn pictures of Jamie just because I was too depressed and nursing Bell's Palsy - which I caught after delivery and I know is not a reason at all! Still, I am blessed and thankful that the Good Lord gave me a healthy baby who brings us daily sunshine and laughter to our lips, the reason why life is worth living!
So, this May, let me share to you a letter (I keep a journal of all my letters for Jamie- this one was dated March 2013). And this is my letter to my daughter:
As I am writing this letter, you are safely sleeping on my chest. You know that I am not a good writer but everything I say to you comes from the heart.
How I love moments like this! Do you know that?
I have a confession to make, Mommy has been pretty emotional lately. I've been crying for days now, they are just sudden bursts, but just short ones. The reason: I realized that you are growing up so fast! I guess fellow moms out there feel the same way too, huh? I get emotional thinking that my baby is growing up! It was just like yesterday that I held you for the first time in my arms and now you are learning to walk on your own!
Oh sweet Jamie, if only we could make time stop or at least slow down, just a teeny bit more so we could cherish every minute of you as a baby! But i know we could not :) You were born to conquer milestones! I wish you could see yourself, you are such an amazing baby girl! You make mommy and daddy proud in so many ways!
Now I am crying again (hahaha) because you have just graduated from crawling!
Someday, I know you will move mountains, sweetheart, but for now, let me cry when I get emotional at your little milestones (I know someday you will laugh at this and say its corny hahaha), But for now, just let me...Just let mommy embrace you more, cuddle you on my lap, kiss and bite those cute toes, tickle your belly, play with your hair while i sing you to sleep.
Let me laugh and feel proud whenever i see you dance, talk gibberish, whenever i hear you say animal sounds; Let me kiss you even if you push me away because you are busy playing with your toys. Just let mommy love you!
I never though that motherhood could bring so much joy in my life and how beautiful it is and how it completes you! Being a mom is one of the best thing in this world, its the best because I have you!
I love you so much Jamie, you are our sweetest song and first smile in the morning! God bless you little one!!!